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The One With Antwerp

And this is my long-awaited Antwerp blog. Bet people have been dying for that one.



So let me start with the fact that this was one trip I should never have gone on in so many ways. Baby-wise, obviously, although that seems to have turned out ok; then money-wise because I had to dip into my fees in order to afford it and now I don't really know how I will pay the rest of the tuition fees that are due in January. And then there is the work factor because not only did I miss workdays, but I had to make up for the missed ones and so ended up working for 5 consecutive days from as early as 8AM Friday (I flew back Thursday night) for 11 hours each day and by Wednesday I was a wreck, physically in the very least. Kinda made me wish I had gone to Trinity, who would, as I found out, have tried to help students who couldn't afford a trip that was a part of their course and assist them financially to reduce the burden. But no, I went to UCD and – due to lack of better word – got royally screwed.



So anyway, the whole ordeal started on the wrong foot, so it really had little elsewhere to go from there. Our flight with Ryanair (I say 'our' because I met another student, Alicia, at the airport as she was flying in the same day as well) was delayed by almost 2 hours because of weather conditions in Brussels.



Consequently, we ended up being a couple of hours late for everything, even moreso when it turned out that it would take us about 3 hours to get from Brussels to Antwerp and not 1 hour like we were told by the guy who sold us the train tickets (and no, we didn't miss any trains or busses, it actually took us that long). Thankfully, Antwerp isn't that large a city to get seriously lost in, so we caught up with everyone else pretty quickly. The only thing is that we missed the tour of Antwerp cathedral, so we had to go in on our own and not for very long. I'm glad we did though, it was a real experience to see these paintings in real life; they're amazing. The city also is very beautiful. It has this amazing, unique beauty and age of an old European city that I love so much; reminded me again why I'm in love with this continent above all others. You could just smell the years that have gone by. I only wish I had more time to take photos (and a better weather, for that matter because not only did the lighting conditions suck, but my hands froze every time I took out the camera… yes, it was cold). Also took me a while before I realized they were driving on the opposite side of the road and what to do to not get run over by cars or cyclists (especially in a city that doesn't really make distinctions between the paving of the road and the footpath so they both look the same… it's old and beautiful, but not very safe for tourists).



After a visit to a few more sites, which again, were beautiful, I just wished the visits were under different circumstances, we ended up for a few minutes in a pub (oh yeah, 3 Irish pubs in Antwerp… that I counted ) before dispersing to our hotels. That in itself was actually hilarious because apparently the hostel I was staying in was the same 2 mature students from years gone by were staying in and when I blurted out the word 'hostel' in relation to it, one of them – very defensively – was like, no! It's a hotel! As though it was beneath her to stay in something called a hostel. Having encountered the same character before, I just stayed quiet. Of course, it was a hostel. Granted, it was very nice (and amazingly cheap!) and very new, but still a hostel, a small family-run hostel in the centre of Antwerp, just off the Cathedral. I definitely had a very good experience staying there. Later that night we (well, the young 'we', as in minus mature students) went out to a restaurant. We ended up in an Italian place (unbelievable how many there are in Antwerp!) that was very nice and the food was great and very cheap. Almost as good and cheap as it was in Rome… I miss Rome . It was a nice night.



Talked a bit about the MA and stuff and lecturers and just random stuff. Turned out I was not the only one who was wondering why the mature students were doing the MA class, or rather our mature students, who seem to have no interest at all in art history, or career plans, and just sleep through classes (well one of them) and spend most of the time complaining. Of course I was not at all surprised when it turned out that we all were wondering about the same question – what the hell were they thinking allowing that poor excuse for a lecturer from NCAD to teach an MA class. I hope they won't repeat that mistake next year. We also talked about our lecturers (well, they talk about us, I'm pretty sure ). I'd been happy before that I was lucky enough to have John as thesis supervisor, but seeing that none of the others were particularly happy with their supervisors made me realize that I was even luckier. We actually had a thesis-related meeting in college the other day and he was uncertain whether he was the right person for the job, but I'm personally very glad and grateful that he agreed to help me.



The night was weird. It was spent away from honey, our first night apart since we moved in together and it was just way too weird. It just felt wrong. Obviously I rang him (apparently he tried to ring me but couldn't get through as he kept trying ringing with an Irish country code… gotta love my sweetness ), and we wished each other good night, but it just wasn't the same.



The next day I got up early and went out to take some more pictures around the city, capture a bit of its atmosphere as well, but the weather and lack of time to really wander around got in the way (oh yeah, my relatively small Antwerp album can be found here). I also tried to find an ATM. These people don't believe in ATMs it seems. I don't know how they pay for their stuff, but I only saw one during my 2 days in the city and the other guys had trouble finding one as well. Anyway, the first museum we went to was actually very good. We got to see a lot of paintings by Rubens and others; the Rubens ones were especially spectacular, but you wouldn't really expect any less. I have to admit though that I don't really take to some of the art that was displayed there so I didn't find too many tings to grab my attention; nothing like Bernini's David for example, in front of which I just froze for an hour. I do think however that it's a shame we didn't have more time. At that stage I thought I would go back one day, but right now, following my experience of getting out of the country, I doubt I would ever set foot there again, even for the sake of Rubens' paintings.



The second museum was a print museum, which was rather interesting as well. Oh and in between I should mention that it actually snowed, but unfortunately it was wet. Damn. And I found a place that made the yummiest waffles, which I couldn't finish because the amount of cream and chocolate in and all around them was too much even for me, but it was still heavenly. So the print museum was very nice, although it didn't leave me with much of a taste for more like the previous one did. I felt I'd seen all I needed to in there. I had to leave early straight after it though, and that's when the real hell began…




I made it okay to the train station, but when I tried to ask the guy in there which train I should take to get me back to the airport, his attitude was awful and he did me a favour that he even talked to me I think. He was not at all inclined to help and actually charged me more for the ticket than I thought he should have by selling me a more expensive one (I just wanted to make the flight so badly that I didn't care) and also, as it turned out later, told me to get off at the wrong stop. It's noteworthy that I finally did find an ATM just before getting into the train station though and withdrew 50 euro. I bought sweets and waffles for the family with my credit card, so after buying a sandwich and something to drink I was left with approx. 40 in cash. It will be important for later in the story.



On the train I tried to confirm with some of the passengers whether the stop he'd recommended really was the right one and they all said yes, but it just still seemed wrong to me. Should have trusted my instincts. I got off at it though and asked one of the officers there if it really was the right one, again, but she just ignored me and kept telling me to look at the screen. By the time I located a screen and sorted through the (foreign) names to find what I needed, the train was off once again and I was left at the Brussels central station. At that stage it was past 5 PM, nearly 2 hours before the takeoff. Hoping or the best, I went outside and grabbed a taxi. Of all the ones I could have found, it was that one and I will thank that for the rest of my life because I definitely found one of my guardian angels behind its wheel.



I asked him to take me to the airport and asked how much he thought it'd be. He said at least 40 euro. I didn't think it'd be that much, but I was desperate so I agreed. When he saw I was hesitating, he said that if I wouldn't have enough, he'd ignore the meter and just take 40. It was all I had. Five minutes into the ride, he asked again which airport – I had no idea there was more that one in the vicinity and I said it was Charleroi. He had apparently thought it was the International one and was like, your airport is 67 km outside the city! Imagine my face that moment. I tried to keep my cool although honestly that stress, and the continuous stress for the next two hours were the last thing I needed.



I asked him to drop me at a bus stop or back at the train station so I could catch a bus or a train there, but he said there were no busses and the next train would be living in an hour and I'll never make it for my flight. I knew he was right. But then he tried to calm me down and started ringing all his friends, until he finally found one who had a group of Italian tourists that needed to catch the Ryanair flight to Venice that left just 5 minutes before mine to Dublin. He told me he'd pick them up and take us to the airport as fast as he can. He'll charge them as much as he should and me only 40 euro. Finally, we made it to their hotel, but then we couldn't get out of the city and the clock was ticking. The Italians wouldn't shut up and he was at his wits' end. The traffic just froze. It didn't move slowly, it didn't move at all; even the police that tried to manage it were helpless. I thought that was it. I'm not a religious person, but I actually started praying to whatever listened to please, please get me out of that country and I'd do anything. I texted honey, telling him I wouldn't make the flight because he was supposed to pick me up, but he just told me not to worry and try to get another one, whichever one; he'll wait for me for as long as it took. We both knew there was no other one, and I had to get up for work at 6AM the following morning.



Finally, we made it out, and I'm pretty sure his speed on the freeway was above legal trying to get us in on time, but I was way beyond caring. I made it to the airport 30 minutes before takeoff; made it to the window just before it closed and the line in security seemed to stretch forever, but I made it on time to board. By god, I never enjoyed a takeoff as much as I did that one. I had never been as happy to see Ireland's lights from the plane's window as we were landing at home. I can't recall another such sense of relief. When I saw honey's face, I just ran into his arms and we were completely unaware of everyone else for a moment; I had no idea it'd be so good to see him again. It was a bit funny because one of his bosses happened to be there too and it was a very awkward meeting between us seeing as I was just easing off after all the stress and really wasn't up to it.



So that was it; my experience in Antwerp. I'm not going back to that country; at least not anytime soon. The artistic aspect of it was worth it, but my experience in it, especially getting back home, just left a huge dark stain over everything Belgium-related and I don't see myself repeating it again in the nearby future. I really wish it hadn't been like that because with that aside, it was a nice trip.



Oh, by the way, something completely unrelated. Yesterday we gave Ciara her birthday present and card because we wouldn't be able to do that later on as I'll be in work and And will be away. So we went over there and gave her the card, which was good and well, then it was time to open the present and, even as she was getting through the wrapping, I had a wrong feeling. When she finally opened it, I realized why – it was the scarf we got Audrey for Christmas!



We all burst out laughing obviously because it really was hilarious, but frankly – a priceless moment. I can't believe we both didn't realize we picked up the wrong bag! Obviously we got her the right present eventually, but hell, that was priceless. That was… something that so absolutely can only happen to yours truly.



And, speaking of pressies, got a parcel from my mom and dad with pressies. I got this ring from them:



And I got a talking Cheburashka teddy from my brother:



That is the best present ever! You won't get it if you didn't grow up in Russia, but trust me, it is. It's like a childhood undisputable icon.

Mood: Moodless
Listening to: Nothing

Posted on Fri, Dec 12 2008 @ 16:44
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The One With Christmas Dinner & Graduation

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The One With 21 Weeks

As promised, here is the heartbeat from 21 weeks. Junior wasn't very cooperative, swimming away all the time and doing summersaults in there, so I was lucky to get a few seconds of barely-heard streaming heartbeat.



And here is me (scary, I know; do excuse my post-shower look):


I decided I will take the baby heart-monitor with me to Antwerp, I'll just have to check with Ryanair if it's okay to carry it in my hand luggage as I won't be checking anything in. I'm just getting more and more anxious about this trip by the second and I think it's the best solution overall (well second best, best solution would be not to go) because I'll be able to check the heartbeat whenever I need to be reassured during those 2 days.



And then there is the more rational side of me that's saying I should really stop obsessing about it...

Mood: Relaxed
Listening to: Russian songs

Posted on Fri, Nov 28 2008 @ 18:20
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The One With The 20W Heartbeat

I forgot! Something very important (especially bearing in mind I will soon be posting a recording for 21 weeks as I am already 21 weeks pregnant ).



Click here for our baby's heartbeat at 20 weeks.

Mood: Excited
Listening to: Nothing

Posted on Thu, Nov 27 2008 @ 22:43
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The One With The First Semester

The first semester is officially over. It feels a bit strange, but there's certain relief attached to it as well. To be perfectly honest, between the headaches and the feeling like shit and the constant tiredness of the first trimester and the (still) tiredness of the second trimester, I never really thought I'd pull through. The (not so) funniest part was of course the persistent lack of concentration, which as some mothers told me, is also a pregnancy side-effect, but which was so very close to failing me in my three final slide-tests when even after days of study I showed up for the tests completely disoriented. Well, on the bright side, I think I fucked up only one of the three; however that still remains to be seen.



This semester unfortunately didn't really end on the most pleasant note with two of my lecturers. First one being Dr. Linda Mulvin and everything that happened this Tuesday. To make a long story short, some people in the class decided to gang up (due to lack of better word) on her and attack her for uploading the slides for the test 2 days before the test itself. That was uncalled for not only in the way they did it, but it was just downright unfair and I'm not sure which made the situation worse – me being in the same room and not shutting them up or just me being in that room. From the moment on I felt I needed to apologize to her, for all of them, regardless of whether or not they even cared, because that behavior was appalling. Not only is she one of the nicest lecturers in the department, but I've had her in previous years and I know she would never give us anything we can't handle. But that aside, they had the Modernism slide test to study for, would it have made any difference in reality if she had uploaded them earlier? Hell, no. And not to mention that her slide test was half of either of the other two. But they attacked her anyway and I don't think I'd ever felt as ashamed to be a part of a group like I did back then in that room. I couldn't even look at either of them today because I just felt disgusted, maybe even moreso with myself for again, not standing up for her. Regardless of good or bad, I know she would give us the marks we deserve and this crap that they pulled was just completely uncalled for.



The other incident was with Professor James-Chakraborty. Today before class she not-so-gently pointed out to me and another guy that our continuous absence from classes has been more than noted and she is considering lowering our grades for that. Of course, I was upset. I don't know if she will actually do that, but it's not the nicest thing to happen to a student regardless. But even that moment when I was a bit selfishly annoyed, I recognized that I most likely deserved it because – hell – I was really not attending her class after the first month and a half or so. The thing is, and I'm not trying to make excuses here, don't get me wrong, that module was horrible. I respect the woman; I really do, I think she is a good lecturer and it is not her – not at all – that I have a problem with. It is the subject of the module and the supporting lecturer from NCAD. That guy lectures on a level excusable in a BA student's presentation, not a college lecturer, and maybe these standards are acceptable in NCAD, but from my experience in the Art History department in UCD, I would really like to know how he managed to make it through the entire semester without being sacked.



As for the subject… I have never been a fan of modern art, but I gave it a chance for the first few weeks, mostly actually because I wanted to take some classes with her as a lecturer as I was told she was good by people who studied with her last year, but what I found there was just too much for me to bear. As an artist and an art lover, I found it insulting, even obscene in some cases (a woman dripping paint from her vagina, a man masturbating under the floor boards to passers by is apparently "art") to the very concept of art. After a while there was only so much I could take and my decision was – no more. I would do the assignments to the best of my ability, I will take the slide test to the best of my ability, but I can't sit there and watch these things (in the best case scenario, "art" is random splashing of paint in a way my unborn baby can do better) while being told over and over again that this is art that costs millions. I just kept running through my head all the articles I read about people protesting against museums spending money on that "art" because the idea alone was laughable and degrading. So with all due respect to her, and I mean it honestly, I just couldn't pull it off. Maybe my solution to this problem was childish, I won't argue against that, but I just couldn't do that anymore.



That's about it. The end of the first semester. Now the trip to Antwerp is coming up in a few days and I'm pretty anxious about that (for obvious reasons) and then just working on my thesis really until next semester, which, bearing in mind it falls on my last trimester should be a challenge in its own right…

Mood: Depends
Listening to: Pearl Jam - Black

Posted on Thu, Nov 27 2008 @ 21:35
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